My blog has been lying collecting dust since my last post which made me had the need to make a post ; so here is my mandatory “au revoir, 2018” update 🌸
I remember telling myself back when 2018 began, that I would make it my best year. This was in relation with the fact that i was gonna appear for NEET in May, 2018 (and seriously people, getting through NEET was the only thing I wanted since ages back) and truthfully speaking, getting through it alone was enough to make this year one of the best yet but what made it truly the best were the many people and experiences whom I was blessed with this year.
Also the constants in my life, my parents, my sister, my family who as always were by my side in each moment, whether good or bad. Blessed is too vague of a word to express what I feel to be born in a family who believes in me more than I believe in myself, which is what an individual needs most to grow – unconditional support and overflowing love. i love you very much peepsies ❤️
2018 wouldn’t be 2018 without them so here is my heartfelt thank you, to the three beautiful women and also to the wonderful people who has been my backbone since college started. Education is important, college is what it is but the presence of amazing people who makes you laugh till your cheekbones hurt, listen to your rants and whims, shows you the assurance of their love and support every single minute ; making happiness ripples surround me and the light spring in my steps while walking down the halls. That, darling, is what life offers you when you meet the right people ❤️ so thank you, my precious ones 🌎🌈
Looking back now, the first few months of this year, I can hardly recount what I did those days besides studying and yeah I think, that’s pretty much everything I did till may 🤔😂. But it’s truly worth it, I believe hard work never goes in vain. Its the realest thing in existence. It never betrays you, it always always gives you back what you deserve.
Also, the main reason why I try to write so MUCH about positivity (well I write plenty on it but publishing it is one thing, so😊) is because I am everything but positive 😂🤣. It’s kinda hypocritical of me to preach positivity when I’m always leaning on pessimisn at the break of any news but maybe that’s why, I read and write more about the goodness of life and the values of positivity we should carry with us. To write and speak about it enough so that those beliefs actually gets ingrained in me and becomes more than just mere words I spell out.
2018 has been a game changer for me in this aspect. And I have ascended the peak of positivity (lemme bask in the joy of this for 5 secs please) because one of my friends said I spread positivtiy (not exactly these words but something along the lines of it so anyways 😂😭). What I realised a while back is that you gain so much goodness from surrounding yourself with bright, pure, virtuous parts of life ; you reflect what you surround yourself with- i never really believed in this but the more you expose yourself to beautiful spirits, enriching books, motivating movies (though i don’t really watch that much movies but 😭) it really transforms your mindset and ways of life, it’s never really about the huge big changes.
It’s nearly impossible to change your perspectives, habits or the things you grow up doing, at full tilt but being in a nurturing environment changes you slowly but surely. I used to really hate big crowds or socialising or meeting people (it gives me anxiety, I swear) and as much as I still dislike it, there comes situations when I have to step up but having a friend who is willing to go out with you, being by your side, having someone who makes the things you find difficult easier is tremendously helpful. It makes you overcome your inhibitions and let’s you grow so much as a person.
Even if things don’t work out sometimes, you should get up, dress up, get out and make use of the fact that God has blessed us with the new day to make things better. Everyday is worthwhile. Each day gives us the chance to be the better person than who we are yesterday and also a chance to give ourselves the beauty and happiness that we deserve ❤️.
So let’s celebrate life everyday and give ourselves what we deserve, let’s not settle for what lies ahead but work for what we deserve. We never really know our abilities until we push ourselves. Stepping out of our comfort zone is as important as excelling in what we know best. Running away, trying to get out of something that is new and tough on us would of course make us feel safe in our small shielded world we create for ourselves but the feeling of pride and happiness on overcoming or conquering something that scares you is indescribable. This is probably the biggest lesson I learned, to push myself and break the walls and limits that we set for ourselves. To take that walk and discover the best of us, which I feel is what we should be doing till the end of our lifetime.
2018 hadn’t been all about rainbows and ponies. As much as amazing things happened, there were occasions which didn’t cater to our wishes at all but I’m truly thankful that everything ended up being alright in the end. If anything, I have grown so much as an individual and I’m just terribly thankful that this year introduced me to an array of people whom i pray will be a part of my life for a long time, gave me the chance to accomplish things that made my parents proud and happy, endowed me with the incredible gift of getting to study my dream subject that I have been longing for a long while so in a nutshell, it’s been a fulfilling year ❤️. Thank you 🌸